10 years of marriage and other stuff

Today, my husband and I celebrate 10 years of marriage.  A LOT has happened (lots of trials) in these ten years...house flooded, three kids, the death of my parents, the death of several grandparents, basement flooding at the house we bought, work, arguments, etc.  BUT we made it through and know we can make it more than 10 more years.  We have shown that we are strong and love each other.  We have three beautiful kids that are the light of our world, and we work together to get through it all.

An another note, I am following my new exercise program pretty well so far.  I am training for a 5K in August.  Since I haven't run much since my half marathon last June, I am doing an advanced beginner plan.  I don't want to burn myself out.  The good thing is that I can add in about three days of other workouts I like also, and I am working on strength training also.  I kind of created my own strength routine based on what I am familiar with and using the heavier dumbbells we have.  I can even watch TV while I use them, so it's easier to stick with.

My weight's still up, but I think with these changes and reading more about healthy eating, I can get this weight back off.  I am confident!  I just need to stop with the ice cream!  LOL

My SHAPE Magazine story will now be in the August issue, which comes out at the end of July (while we're on vacation).  I'm ready to see it!  I can't wait to see which picture they chose!!

That's about all I've got for now.

Later...

I haven't been posting much because...

I haven't been motivated to lose weight, exercise, eat right, etc.  I am not sure if it's in my mind, something wrong with my body (getting my thyroid checked out soon), or depression since I have no more parents.  BUT it's been a mental struggle for a while now.  I am not sure how to get over it and back on track.  I know my tight clothes are driving me nuts along with my fat rolls and things jiggly that shouldn't be and my puffier looking face.  I know I need to do something.  I need a kick, and I don't know where it's going to come from or when.  I feel like I'm just going through the motions (of life?), but I am not getting much out of it.  I put on a happy face, but I don't think I am really feeling that way.  One would think after losing my dad to health problems, I would feel that drive like I did after my mom died.  Maybe it's because I am still getting compliments about my weight loss, I am still fitting into non-plus size clothing, and my husband still finds me attractive that I am not finding that spark to lose the 20 pounds I've gained in the past year.  I think if I had the time or money, maybe I would join an exercise class or something.  BUT I am doing it all on my own.  I've done it all on my own before and been motivated, so what gives now?

Anyway, maybe I'll figure this out soon. I sure hope so.  On a lighter note, my issue of SHAPE Magazine should be out in the next week or two.  I originally thought I would be back down to at least 160 (was 169 this morning) by the time the issue came out, but...

If anyone has seen my motivation, please send it back to me.  I sure do need it again!