I haven't been motivated to lose weight, exercise, eat right, etc. I am not sure if it's in my mind, something wrong with my body (getting my thyroid checked out soon), or depression since I have no more parents. BUT it's been a mental struggle for a while now. I am not sure how to get over it and back on track. I know my tight clothes are driving me nuts along with my fat rolls and things jiggly that shouldn't be and my puffier looking face. I know I need to do something. I need a kick, and I don't know where it's going to come from or when. I feel like I'm just going through the motions (of life?), but I am not getting much out of it. I put on a happy face, but I don't think I am really feeling that way. One would think after losing my dad to health problems, I would feel that drive like I did after my mom died. Maybe it's because I am still getting compliments about my weight loss, I am still fitting into non-plus size clothing, and my husband still finds me attractive that I am not finding that spark to lose the 20 pounds I've gained in the past year. I think if I had the time or money, maybe I would join an exercise class or something. BUT I am doing it all on my own. I've done it all on my own before and been motivated, so what gives now?
Anyway, maybe I'll figure this out soon. I sure hope so. On a lighter note, my issue of SHAPE Magazine should be out in the next week or two. I originally thought I would be back down to at least 160 (was 169 this morning) by the time the issue came out, but...
If anyone has seen my motivation, please send it back to me. I sure do need it again!
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